Saturday, 25 August 2007
Lonely [part I] - that wednesday night at school
Ostracizes:- When a group of people ostracizes someone, they refuse to talk to or do things with that person. / To avoid someone intentionally or to prevent them from taking part in the activities of a group. / To exclude, by general consent, from society, friendship, conversation, privileges, etc.
There are some things in life that we cannot ask for. What happens is often fated.
It was all self-explanatory for what happened on Wednesday.
4.30pm++
I kind of walked into my class guys when I walked out of 407. When the guys saw me, they immediately turned the other way, and I heard one of them saying, “Oh, need to go toilet.” Then again, when I stepped out of my class, all of them turned to run, but one of them told me, “TengTeng, we are going to hide now. You must come find us.”
I didn’t know why I did not bother to play along. My phone rang sometime later, they told me that they were on the way to central and asked if I wanted to join them. I had believed that they were making fun of me, but it was proven wrong when I saw the whole lot of them standing along the roadside. I was hesitant about joining them, who knows if they might run off, while I was on my way to meet them. I wasted nearly 10 minutes standing at the front gate, still pondering if I should meet up with them. They called again, this time; they said that there were 2 of them waiting for me at the back gate. I ran without all my might and was totally shocked when I saw 4 of them there waiting for me. Yes, indeed, I was touched. Whatever it was, they had waited. Then I felt guilty for my hesitance at school, making them wait even longer.
Dinner:
No one talked to me. I ate my way through in silence, not knowing why I was left out.
Back to school for night study.
The guys had decided that it was too crowded in the canteen and decided to study at back of the ecogarden. There were 14 of us in total. The 5 guys took a table, totally understood; they’re nearly stuck on each other. The 4 girls took another table, leaving me and another 4 of them. They simply filled another table, leaving me all alone. It was a lonely 1hour++. I had not expected this at all. Maybe I had expected too much, or I had not known how badly they did not want me around.
8.30pm++
Everyone packed hurriedly, fearing of being locked up in school. Some of the girls were lucky and had their parents to chauffer them home. How I wished that my parents could be there to ferry me home too. I tried to hitch a ride to central from teacher. Too bad that his car wasn’t big enough to ferry 5 people. I felt like a total idiot when the front passenger seat closed on me, while the others piled up backseat. No choice, I walked to central with the guys (and a girl), parting with 2 of them along the way. Along the way to central, there was dead silence along the way. Maybe it was because of me. NO ONE TALKED TO ME. They talked among themselves, simply ignoring me. Out of a sudden, 5 of them “accelerated”, leaving me behind, with on of the guys. I had no idea what was happening. But my sixth sense could tell. It was ostracism. If my predictions weren’t wrong, thanks for reducing the ostracism; (maybe he didn’t want to make me be left out totally.)
*no names are mentioned to protect the identity of the people involved, as they might be innocent.
.under-estimated.
by makk at 4:02 pm |
1 Comments:
Hey, dont say that luh. You're not the one who is ostracised, seriously. It's some other people.
It's reality. People treat you real good when they can benefit from the stuffs that you are able to give.
And the meaning of a clique? "a group of people who are friendly with each other but exclude others"
If you really do feel ostracised, look at how others treat their own cliques. Might learn something fron there. Ya?
Cheer, girl(:
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