under-estimated: November 2007

Wednesday, 28 November 2007

Aftermathing the camp

Done.
Completed the camp. Survived the camp, and still in one piece.

Despite the fact that I've gone through the camp, I suddenly find myself not really enjoying it. Really disappointed. ROAR.

I had expected this camp to be memorable on the good side, but instead it was memorable on the bad side. I hope I had done nothing wrong on my part.

Firstly, I didn't really enjoy BBQ, maybe because I wasn't really hungry. Or maybe there was not enough food. I didn't expect the guys to be so hungry and to create piles or mountains of food on their seemingly small paper plates.
Secondly, I didn't participate in those games.
Thirdly, I felt ostracized.
Perhaps the third reason was the cause of the second reason.
Lastly, I didn't sleep well.

*A PERSON WITH INSUFFICIENT SLEEP IS NOTHING BUT A GRUMPY MAN.*
[beware to those with insufficient sleep]

I had only 2.5 hours of sleep last night [couldn't fall asleep at all, despite the fact that I was tired.] I'm very much bothered about what happened for the past two days. I was not asked to help out during the treasure hunt thing last night, instead the other sec4 guy was asked to help. Why? Don't tell me that you guys have everything planned nicely with each one having a destined post. Those at the virtual money stall were people just roped in to help out last minute. Rubbish, all lies.

I hope that whatever you told me just now, was true. When I offered to help you take pictures, you told me that it was alright, and someone else was holding onto the camera. But when I turned around, I saw that the camera was in your pocket! Am I supposed to believe what I see, or what I hear? If you really do not wish for me to help, just tell me that you can handle it on your own. It is really fine, it's not like I've never been rejected in my entire life.
Then you tell me to await for better news after lunch, well, nothing suprising happened. I was still slacking apparently, isn't it?
Bottom line: I'm a person that is just so hard to work with.

I'm really no fool. It's rather obvious that I was being backstabbed all the while during the camp. Stop being such a petty person. Fine, if I had done something wrong that has angered Your Majesty, open your golden mouth and whack it all out, alright? I don't understand why I have to withstand all your nonsense. You think I felt good? You think what you did was not obvious? C'mon, don't believe in what you might just think. It's ridiculous to go on like that. If you don't want me as a friend, say it. Then I won't be. We've worked together for tons of projects during our 4 years in school and yet, there's still so much conflict. Really can't understand.

Perhaps in future, the management should look into each camper's welfare, and be more conscious of how they protray themselves [no doubt that they have produced good work for the preparation and games.]

Didn't enjoy at all.
Really regretted coming.
I would think twice about participating for such camps in future.
I'm just so glad to be home now.
It was just too...
Disappointing.

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sick at school...

I'm right now in school. Rotting my time away, until the amazing race ends. I'm doing nothing but slacking and slacking. I don't know whether it's my fault or whoever's fault. I'm just so free during the games session, as in the amazing races that took place since last night.

I didn't sleep well either, seriously don't know what's wrong, worse, I'm not tired now. =.=
I feel like a piece of shit man, so crap, so useless, so urghhh..
Maybe it's my own fault. Maybe I did something wrong, just like those friends problems that has been revolving around me eversince. Sigh.

I pray hard for the lunch later to be successful, imagine planning for meals without knowing exactly how many people are turning up for the camp. Eww. Well, at least the BBQ went rather well last night.

Natural born sai-kang worker, this morning woke up, had breakfast and led a group of INNO people to wash those dirty pits. ROAR.
Well, an sms tells me that I'll be having fun later~ I'll just have to see and pray for the best~!

I miss all at home.
yy, I'm coming home to watch HSM with you and erjie tonight. =)

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Sunday, 25 November 2007

Nan Hua Open House

Yesterday was open house. It was seriously a tired and busy day, had to carry stuff up and down, go around to put up exhibits and stuff. One thing that I clearly remebered that I had to post on here, was that I found INNO's booth superbly impressive!!! Well done guys (and girls)!! It was the best display put up since the past two years (I'm not joking.) Really impressed. Congrats to the club~! =)

I missed walking around the school aimlessly (he last time it happened was like months ago.) Strolling around the school compound brings back endless memories, be it happy or sad ones. Inno camps, flag rasing ceromonies, recess and lunch times (in particular ball games) and projects all flashed back into my mind. I'm seriously not really willing nor ready to leave this place. It seemed as though I've just entered the school compound yesterday. Unbelievable. 4 years just flew past like this. Wow...

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Reality

We are often made use of in life, be it knowingly or unknowingly. I've experienced such stuff before, in particular during those very "happening" days of mine. Looking back, some teachers have made use of me, simply to suck up to the school management (definetely not idol and her good friend). I was really naive to be so friendly with these teachers, thinking that they were really "true" to me, or treat me with their hearts. Silly? No, rule of thumb. Learn through experiences. Therefore, I'm not as silly now. I won't fall into this trap again.

Now that I've decided to move on with a new life, I won't look back at all those stuff that happened to me. (I really feel like erasing my previous posts.) The problem with friends, is probably my own problem. Well, if it isn't my problem, there's no reason why everyone would find me problematic, siickening, disgusting... I need to reflect. loads.

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