under-estimated: May 2008

Saturday, 31 May 2008

cheats

again.
when people need ur help, or when u are of use. they'll be super duper nice to u.
but.
when people don't need ur help, they'll treat u like a piece of dung.

why be so nice when there is not a need?
why not u have a look at m-my face?
darn.
waste my time, waste my effort.
so what if i can draw?
design is something so individual, do it the graphical way then.
i feel so so darn cheated.
now my randoms post mean something.

-.-

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randoms

rubbish.
idiot.
basket.
what the hell.
shut up.

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msn sucks.
it's either i really got blocked, or i can't view my contacts online.

hell for me. grr.

who is the one ar?
it's not funny.

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Friday, 30 May 2008

end.

Go. Went. Gone.
is it all going to end like that?
time to go, goodbye.

those memories, u shall live in my heart.
forever.

those were the days...

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so stressed now.
the design is a bit hard.
attempting to resize the design, attempting to correct the design also.
hai. its not easy lor. really. first time i feel so stressed when designing a shirt.
lucky, kl and jg are around to help mi, by being truthful in commenting my design.
hai. it's not easy to be their senior lor. for whatever reason, say i'm not-so-intelligent.
freak.
suddenly i feel like asking jg to design it instead.
muahahahs.

help!!

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Sunday, 25 May 2008

yet another dedication... to kjg.

真心英雄

周：在我心中曾经有一个梦
要用歌声让你忘了所有的痛

成：灿烂星空谁是真的英雄
平凡的人们给我最多感动

黄：再没有恨也没有了痛
但愿人间处处都有爱的影踪

李：用我们的歌换你真心笑容
祝福你的人生从此与众不同

把握生命里的每一分钟
全力以赴我们心中的梦
不经历风雨怎么见彩虹
没有人能随随便便成功

把握生命里每一次感动
和心爱的朋友热情相拥
让真心的话和开心的泪
在你我的心里流动

啦啦啦啦......

i don't know why. but jg was happily humming this song to himself in the library.
so yea. dedicating this song to him then.
it's really nice (:

Saturday, 24 May 2008

祝福-张学友

不要问不要说
一切尽在不言中
这一刻偎著烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手莫回头当我唱起这首歌
怕只怕泪水轻轻的滑落
愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个舂夏秋冬

几许愁几许忧人生难免苦与痛
失去过才能真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
情难舍人难留今朝一别各西东
冷和热点点滴滴在心头
愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个春夏秋冬

伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

不要问不要说
一切尽在不言中
这一刻偎著烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手莫回头当我唱起这首歌
愿心中留著笑容
伴你渡过每个春夏秋冬

You are The Wheel of Fortune
Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success.
The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune.

Almost always good fortune.

You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you.

Be careful that success does not go to your head however.

Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?

Take the Test to Find Out.

Friday, 23 May 2008

dedicated to you and you only (:

went back to nh today. yes, i miss nh alot indeed. i finally got a chance to talk to my dearest mrs. chang and mrs. jacq tan. (: although the meeting and talk was brief, i was more than just contented.

mrs. chang was recapping my o level days, much to my "delight". yea, i'm her special problematic student. the one and only that gave her really cool problems. i really miss those days of extra and unique physics drills at interesting venues. yes, i'm the only one so far who has been given this special privillege.

we talked a little about erjie and much more about the updates in school. when we were comparing about the difference between erjie and i, i came up with this ingenious phrase that i myself found it pretty amusing. "erjie tries her best. and i try to try my best." i guess mrs. chang, mrs. tan and mrs. b lim found it rather interesting too! hehes.

after that i was back to inno, watching them try to work as a group and complete building their robots. i couldn't really understand what they were doing, for i was unfamiliar with the new nxt. i guess i should try to learn it somehow or sometime soon. i guess the guys and the trainer were all trying hard. i really hope they can do well on the coming tuesday. i know mrs. chang's goning to be there with her kids, but sadly, i've got school and i can't join them! arghhs. ):

headed down to queesway to try hunting for the new club-tee-to-be. i found the quotation rather reasonable. we camped at mac for half an hour, trying to brainstorm and get a really interesting design out of my head, while jinguan and khengleng busied themselves with the awards tabulation. jinguan had to leave halfway, while khengleng and i went back to the printing shop to get some more inspriations. on our way out of queensway, we happened to pass by a shop which sold the sandals in which i was looking for. $9.90 was all that it cost. i guess it was a pretty good deal and i bought the white pair, after a little hesitation. thanks to khengleng for bearing with my hesitation.

i was considered late to reach home, much to the unhappiness of mummy ): sorry mummy. i really didn't mean to be home so late. i miss spending time with the so beloved mrs. chang and mrs. tan, hai. we are all such busy people. meanwhile, i must try to do my best for my upcoming tests, i must not disappoint them. i'm feeling a little guilty, i haven't updated mummy on my tests.
i'm afraid of telling mummy and daddy about my tests. their persistant and undying love and hope for me to do well is evident in their constant reminders. maybe that is why i'm afraid of saying.

but anyway, i had to sms mrs. chang after i got home, giving her the bad news that i couldn't be around to help her out tomorrow morning. i mean, i really really would like to help her out, but, i have work i haven't finish and mummy would like me to try to finish my work asap too. who wouldn't? i feel really really bad lar. i hope mrs. chang won't be angry with me, at most, i'll be her punch bag the next time i see her ): i promise. i hope the 6 guys from inno would be able to help you out.

please dunch be angry with mi. i'm so so sorry ):

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Monday, 19 May 2008

as i watch the news everyday, the headlines were all filled with news on the sichuan quake. there had been a boom on fund raising shows that were organized by various countries, such as hong kong, china and taiwan and these fund raising shows were much supported by the citizens of the various countries. there was no doing away with the heart-wrenching pictures or video clips on these shows. often, we would see families "reuniting" with their loved ones physically, regardless of whether they are dead or alive. i found it hard to endure through all these live footage and mentally-torturing photographs.
on a higher note, today is vesak day. i'm feel so lucky to be able to spend this day together with everyone in the mak family. we met up with gu ma at tiong bahru plaza bus stop and we made our way down to ju shi ling at river valley road. met ye ye, ma ma, gu jie, gu zhang and ah boy there. really people mountain people sea. we went into the temple, i donated about 2 bucks to the temple and then 10 bucks for the sichuan quake relief. it was a really different experience for me, for i've never been into a temple which was that grand. the Buddha statue was as high as the celling was and the chanting that was going on in the temple was rather soothing to the ears and the mind. there was a even bigger Buddha statue in the open area of the temple. really majestic and grand. we had lunch at the temple. there was a free flow of vegetarian food available at the temple. this was a really memorable lunch for me, for i had to push my way through the crowd to get my food. and to top it all, the uncles and aunties, who went to pray at the temple today, were a little uncivilised. the food was not exactly very cooked, i guess, for i could taste the grassy flavour in the vegetables itself. all in all, this lunch gave me a feel of what it would be like if there was a shortage of food or what we often know as food rationing.
after visiting the temple, we went to og (people's park). mummy got some floor mats, yy got some clothes, daddy didnt buy anything and gu jie bought me this pull-string pouch thing. we had some dessert at the roadside stall. the mocha ice cream was really coffee's coffee. omg. it was shiok-ingly bitter, yes! when we were about to leave, i stood up to carry my bag. i forgot that my darling bagpack was a bit puffy. and apparently there was this auntie who complained, "O-o-ouch-h-h! Your bag sc-c-cratch-h-h m-me!" was there really a need to express her "feelings" like that in a play? omg. i just can't stand this people. anw, i did apologise, but i did so sarcastically, hahas.
went home right after the desserts. then some weirdos said they wanna badminton. o.O i amazingly agreed. much to my delight, i worked my way through badminton the entire evening and came home with a weak right arm, a nearly aching ankle and two flattened heels. many thanks to msy for the really cool training.
and yes, i'm skill-less. blehhs. still didnt manage to skate ): i shall try againt the next time (:

flying air pork.
piece of mutton.
fresh chicken meat.
mini rotten rat.
elongated smelly monkey.
welcome to the animal kingdom.

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Wednesday, 14 May 2008

when two people of the same characters are being placed together, there's bound to be friction.
and as time goes on, there would sure be friction.
then a big clash.
i can feel the friction.
i'm praying that the clash wouldn't occur.
i'm pushing mysellf to the limit, enduring with my taut nerves.
if i explode, a disaster can't be avoided.
i don't wish to explode.
please don't do this to me, please...

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Sunday, 11 May 2008

happy mothers' day

woke up at 8.30 this morning. the whole big family went to yan ge @ warren country club to celebrate mothers' day. i apparently ate quite a bit. ah boy was nice to offer me food, which gujie said i must have been really lucky. hahas. ah boy rarely offers food or share food with others, yes, i'm a lucky dajie.

headed down to amk to repair all our specs and to get an eyecheck. mummy was relieved to know that all our eyesights had maintained. i guess it's the best mothers' day gift. my right lens had the peeling effect which was mainly caused by rain water. wow. the rain droplets were only attracted to my right lens. wow.

visited amk hub since it was so along the way. it was my great idea to say that i want to buy some clothes, so the whole family accompanied me all over amk hub. in the end i got 3 blouses, 2 from converse and 1 from red 2. the blouse and one of the blouses from converse are black, leaving the last blouse, cream colour. hahas. i don't know why i'm always so into black. i didn't really choose the colour, the colour usually chooses me. mummy said i looked good in black, maybe because i'm fair. hahas.

anw, daddy suggested that we have our lunner (lunch cum dinner) at new york. we had really nice western food! hahas. daddy ordered a whole chicken while mummy ordered fish and chips. i got a bacon and cheese thing and yy got her pasta with giant meatballs. the sad thing is that i couldn't have any of her pasta beacause it was beef. ): erjie ordered fries with cheese and mayo and we got another side order of soft shell crabs! hahas. i love the mayo that came with the fries and crab. to end it all, we ordered some chocolate ice-cream thing, there was whipped cream, chocolate ice-cream with chocolate fudge and chocolate rice! chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate! i love chocolate!!! no wonder i'm looking bigger and bigger ):

went to the doctor on the way home. doctor analysed the patch of dno-wad stuff on my neck as fungal infection. so yea, i'm mouldy! hahas. got some cream and some antiseptic wash for the fungus. there was this healing effect once i've applied the cream. the feeling is "shiok" like when u apply salt to ulcers. -.-

got to rush to finish my work le. there's really so much more to do, especially when i've been out enjoying myself the whole day. omg. tell me it's actually mothers' day.
haha.

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Saturday, 10 May 2008

overloaded with work. don't really have time and mood to blog.
nicholas said i've been thinking too much and that i've still got worries because of what happened for the last four years.
i'm trying to keep everything as sane as possible.
i don't want to spoil anything, that had been nearly perfect.

will history repeat?

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Friday, 9 May 2008

i don't seem to be able to break away from the horrors of secondary school days and results. i'm not doing well for bizca. i don't know why. i've followed every single step in the book, yet the scores are horrifying. i've attained a lousy C grade for unit A, a 90/100 for casegrader ex.1 and a 88/100 for casegrader ex. 2. everyone else can attain perfect scores. i'm like way below target. what the hell am i doing?! super pissed off with myself.

i can't afford to let history repeat itself.
how many people am i going to let down again?
how many are going to look down on me again?

i'm so desperately hoping to do better each time for bizca.
i want to get the best grades possible.
i don't wish for mummy, daddy and all at home to be disappointed again.
this is the only chance that i have, to prove to the world, my world, that i can excel.

give me some drive!

i promised not to disappoint u again.
i'm trying, i'm trying.

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Sunday, 4 May 2008

father and daughter

i went to the movies yesterday. (i saw junyang,lee! omg. he actually smiled and waved hi. he's in JJ currently. nearly lost contact with all my sec sch friends.)

watched "Nim's Island" with daddy. this is a touching movie, which shows the strong bond and love between father and daughter. shall not elaborate the movie. i'll let the movie previews do the saying.

after the movies, daddy and i went to have some coffee and tom-yam soup. it is really cool to mix these two liquid substances together. wow. daddy went to invest in 4D, while i walked around the place and saw some really cute ez-link stickers. so daddy bought 6 of them for all of us (including ah boy). hahas. i took simon. can u see the resemblance?

it's the black rimmed specs. hahaha.

went to look for erjie at the library. she was studying-hard. super hard. good for her. if only i were half of what she is, i wouldn't have to fret about exams, tests and quizzes. hai.

anws, i did buy a bag. looks nice, school-like, and a certain feminine style. whee.
all the money spent yesterday was credited to daddy's poor old wallet. ): i was like a money absorber. grr.
got home to try out the bag and realised that it looked not bad. the sad bit is that the bag is a little "long" in some sense. so when my books and stuff went in, the bag sagged ): so sad.
maybe i should just invest on the j-square bag that i saw at bbp last year (i know i'm a little back-dated. but well...)

i'm saving!
i'm saving!!
i'm saving!!!

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Friday, 2 May 2008

nothing much happened today. just the usual of bizca and webpublishing. bizca was boring with excel and more excel ): the climax of the day was during webpublishing.
lecturer was trying to explain the "ploject" (project) to us. then he went on with the "taa-get" (target) from link to link. the real climax was after the lesson when huiling and i were discussing about the "taa-get" and "ploject". poor lecturer, he actually said this in class,: "class, you bedder listen up here.. over ere.. i know wad you are doing ar ah.. i have explain many time o-ready.. this is the fifft time i am explaining.." gosh. can you sense the "wu-nai" in the tone? hai. it's time to do something.
anws, a new term surfaced: "Z-ump link" (the actual word is Jump link. please ask huiling for a live demo, cos it's 99.9999999% accurate - i'm so not joking.)
omg. me and huiling are really number one at noticing and imitating lecturers' behaviours, first is this webpublishing lecturer, next is the math lecturer. we promised to sit next to each other for math on monday, cos we wanna see what up-roar we would create with "flaction" and "reciplocal". muahahaha.
right after class, me, huiling, lingli, yanting, mary (larry) and juwei went to canteen 4, just to try out the western food. uhmm. nothing too special, or maybe cos i can't really tell (i seriously can't tell the difference between good food and "bad" food or wha'ts excellent or what's not.) after that we hit the library (diamond room) to try to continue doing bizca, cos our deadline was like by 23:59 today. (-.-)
changed place from the 4-men study room to the gallery and then to some square chaired places on level 4. really didn't know what we were doing. hahas.yanting was super fast, she was first to finish, followed by huiling (or was it lingli) then finally me (and perhaps mary). junwei was cs-ing. hai.
went home with the ladies (cos the guys left earlier). really crapped on our way to clementi. i was the nutter who told everyone to change their names to start with "B". so it went like: bak beng beng, bai ban bing, boh bui bing, ban bing bi.. (-.-) B-day rocks! we're not too mentally sound, so yea, beware!

home sweet home.

ocean was given his dinner around 4p.m. today. sadly, he doesn't really know that the 4p.m. meal was his dinner. so he waited and followed us all over the place, whenever someone got up and walk around. i guess ocean was kinda hungry, but since he couldn't speak, he whinned innocently to get our attention. mummy was the first to have her heart melted for him. i was next, walked over and picked him up. i looked into his eyes, hai. again, it's those super innocent and darling look (-.-) totally amazed. told ocean to "orh-orh" and he did it right exactly by lying down on my left shoulder! omg. see how darling it is? tried it for a few times consecutively and he bingo-ed everything. wow.
no choice, gave in to him and gave him dinner-the second.
naughty darling.

the same theory applies to humans. whenever there's a need for a favour, we'd tend to be superbly nice to that person. perhaps it's just the way of life, the same application in all living things on mother earth.
even i'm like this sometimes.
*oops*

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Thursday, 1 May 2008

NYAA Silver!

*front row: Daniel, Nick, Si Ian, Shana, Jun He, Tess.
*second row: Si Hui, Chee Yew, Kay Wee, Junyang, Lixuan, Christina, Me.
*third row: Joyce, Fang Qi, Cassandra, Li Jie, Keming.

lucky si ian who got his photo shot rather 'clear'. (:

lucky tess too (:

the Nan Hua representatives who were not in Nan Hua uniforms! (:

close-up!
*shana, christ, sihui, fangqi, joyce, cass, me, tess, lixuan, nick, keming, lijie,siian, kaywee, cheeyew, junhe (just behind cheeyew), junyang, daniel.

popp-ing~!

another shot: fangqi, joyce, sihui, christina, junhe, lixuan, cass, shana, lijie, me, tess, keming, kaywee, siian, junyang, daniel, nick, cheeyew.

memories.

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