under-estimated: July 2008

Sunday, 20 July 2008

i was supposed to blog yesterday, but my stupid internet aint working fine. i've got this happy smile that is in me, since yesterday evening. i feel like i'm going to explode soon, cos i've finally seen my dearest idol! whee..

inno had their f1 challenge at convention center yesterday. econs ended at 5pm (i was praying that tutorial would end early ): but it didnt.) i rushed down to convention center, hoping to catch zhenguo and co. before they left. (it's been a long time i've seen them.) the best surprise was when i saw my idol sitting there when i was climbing up the steps to where the inno guys were sitting. it just didnt strike me that idol was there. i walked to where idol was sitting and i squatted down behind her. i think she didnt realise that i was there until she turned around.

i somehow have this feeling that idol was kinda shocked, surprised, happy to see me. but i didnt talk much at first, cos i didnt know if i was disturbing idol or not and i dont know what was the right approach. it just felt awkward talking, when we've not spoken to each other for so long. anw, i was lucky that we were on the right key, we hit off just fine soon after that. there was so much to update idol about. mdm asked how was school for me (she was surprised to hear that i was struggling to stay alive), mdm also asked about friends, ("you ar, forever one lar.. no friends.." ((: mdm's been saying this since she's known me) apparently she thought that i had no friends, but i told her truthfully that i should see her, since i miss her so much. idol got nothing to say after that, she merely smiled. ((: we also discussed a little on politics in school, i could tell that she wasnt happy (somehow), i just felt so sorry for her. if only i was still in nh, i guess she wouldnt feel so lonely about being in that situation herself. (after all, i'm usually on her side in such circumstances.)
i still remember those days in nh when we leaned against each other for support while walking, but we usually dont do so when there were other students around. but there wasnt anything of such yesterday, hahas, mayb because we kinda miss each other? yes, i really miss those days. those punching bag days. idol brings a spark, that leads to a flickering flame and then to a strong burning fire, which brightens my life! ((:
i wish i could help her, since she's got so much on her mind.
if only i was a bit older, perhaps i would be more mature and might be able to help her lighten her load. (just like what i do at home.)

anw, (24th july)...
happy birthday to ocean! my smelly darling is finally 5 (dog) years old!
ocean loves to camp under my bed.
ocean fills the bedroom with his scent -.-
ocean loves to wet his fur.
ocean is one dirty dog.
ocean loves to give me "that look".
ocean misses me when i go to school.
ocean likes to own my bed.
ocean is a smelly boy boy.
ocean enjoys sneaking around.
ocean is afraid of the rain.
ocean loves to put his head out of the window.
ocean is so greedy, he eats almost everything (except garlic).
ocean is my lover boy (i think!) :p

happy birthday darling!! ((:

i did a really funny quiz that day.. anw, the results seem pretty convincing. hahas.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

seem somewhat true..

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Friday, 11 July 2008

nothing much to blog about today.
i just didnt talk much today, i dno why.
i was listening to almost everybody i met today, except when i was doing bizca project.
tired? maybe, i guess i was more towards being moody ):
lousy mood.

the rest of this post has the same content as the previous post.
i miss idol - to the core of mother earth ):

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Wednesday, 9 July 2008

100th post dedication: dead famous.

why are we such god-crazy busy people??!!
it's going to be a month since i've last seen my idol. i cant stand this! i used to see her on a daily basis. and now, it has turned into a once-a-month thing! it's so not fair!

now i've this post all about u on my blog. u're dead famous man. yes, just like an idol would be.

i remember when the goodbye hug u gave (outside the go) before u left for the states some 4 years ago.
i remember u comforting me when i lost it during njrc 2 years ago and when we camped out at the special rooms.
i remember u complaining about my tie before i went for the moe presentation.
i remember u watching me from the 5th floor on the rehearsal day for the sg opening. (i have this string feeling that u were watching me from the same place on the actual day)
i remember that i had nearly stayed over at ur house some 2 years ago.
i remember those killer looks u gave me when i did something crazy.
i am terribly sorry that i made u upset, for i remembered that u were on the verge of tears while telling me to work hard. it was that morning after morning assembly.

i miss those times which i did my work at ur place.
i miss those times when u so enjoyed whacking me hard.
i miss those times which we couldnt walk straight and stumble into each other's path.
i miss those times when i could ride a bus with u and take a longer route to get home.
i miss those times which i looked for you during breaks.
i miss those times where i seek comfort at ur desk when i was down.
i miss those times when u had me hiding when we saw him coming.
i miss those times where i could run errands for u.
i miss those times when u took me as ur punching bag.
i miss those times when we gossiped.
i miss those times when u were there for me.
):

everything seemed as though they happened yesterday. haiz.
this could have been a longer post.
there's just so much memories...

i only saw u from a distance when i was on my way home, while u were on urs.
):
freak freak freak.
oh gawdness, u dno how much impact u've had on me man.
i miss my idol BADly...

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yesterday was so tiring. woke up early to ensure that i'd be on time for itl tutorial. but i was super early. goodness. reached np bus stop around 7.27a.m., when my lesson is at 8a.m. i was so glad that i saw acl and ruth at the bus stop! hahas, it's been a long time since we've chatted (: missed those days..
itl tutorial was totally rubbish. the class didnt bring laptops, so we had no choice but to listen the lecturer. and he complained when we were actually paying attention! he's so ughhh.. when we are with our laptops, he complains that we keep staring at the screen. and when we are without our laptops, he complains that we keep staring at him blankly. goodness. if we dont stare at him, who do we stare at? crazy man. really dno what he actually wants.
anw, we had lunch at canteen 3. its my first time at canteen 3. the choice of food there is different from those at canteen 1, 2 and 4. i like canteen 3, for it's fish soup stall, roti prata stall and some other stalls which i dont remember.
carried on with port visit. it was a little boring. not as good as i had expected it to be. of cos, the best part of the trip was to keep snapping pictures (of ourselves). i did take a few pictures, but i guess i was still a little camera shy at first. almost the whole trip was on coach, seems as thou i'm on a tour in malaysia. hahas. i enjoyed the sea views and the blue sky. it just seems so good not to see any high rise buildings around. hahas. sad thing was that we didnt manage to walk around the jurong port.
went to bowl with larry, junwei, huiling, yanting and lingli. my freaking right hand was so so weak. after like 6 throws, my ball kept getting into the gutter, and yanting was like 'aiyo'. so sad. useless right hand. played 2 games. by the end of it, the vein on my right hand was like bulging. omg. i think i need to learn to use the right strength. otherwise, i'll never be able to do incline or bowl or carry heavy things again. hai.

today was crazy.
called up hp and asked about my laptop. this customer service guy was speaking in some accent which i really had a hard time trying to understand. i cant stand customer service officers who speak with such accent. the guy was telling me to do some hard disk scan or test. this test took 77 mins!! it nearly made me late for class. by the time the test was done, it was 11.40a.m. gosh.
called singtel after that. asked why my broadband had to do dial-up. the singtel guy asked me to do some check on the network devices. things seem ok. then i realised that it was my lan card that was not working properly. anw, the internet is working fine now, except for faulty lan card.
called sony again. told them about the problem of my phone. keeps restarting, blacking out and telling me to insert sim or show me inactive sim. gosh. someone called me from sony around 11a.m. told me to go down to service center again. this time round was to check my memory stick. they suspect that there is something wrong with the files in my memory stick. i'll be calling up sony to check again, since i've got some confidential photos which i wont wna show some people which i dont know.
these 3 calls made me really late for school. i was to leave house at 11.45a.m. i was still home at 12.10p.m. gosh. had no choice but to bus down to cck and then train down to clem. cabbed down to school from clem. it's been a long time since i've took a cab. it's like $0.20 per metre!! by the time i reached class, i was shocked to see that i was the only one around. i thought i had missed some 'today is e-learning day' or 'no econs lesson' email. lecturer arrived at class 5 mins after i reached class. goodness. i cant imagine him being so 'early'. kinda wasted my $6 cab fare.

daddy was kinda scowling when he found out that more than half of his $10 was gone in a day.
i'm so pissed that i lost so much money in just 2 days. first the bowling, then the cab. i wonder how much i'm gonna lose tmr.

yuck.
gimme back my MONEY!

.under-estimated.

Saturday, 5 July 2008

erjie is dancing away at ndp. yy's also at marina, cos today is her NE show. come to think of it, i remember i missed my NE show when i was in primary 5. hai. sad stuff which happened like 6 years ago. because the school's official opening clashed with the NE show, i had to forgo the chance and did some weirdo line-dancing at the school's opening. hahas.

daddy went for his office's family day at some changi place which i dno. mummy and i were supposed to go, but daddy commented that transport was a problem and that we have to rush back to fetch yy and erjie, and all the other crappy excuses. there was simply no room for discussion or suggestion, goodness, i simply don't understand why there is a need to say no so quickly. mummy doesn't seem so enthu about it either. hai. i really cannot understand these two old lovebirds.
i'm feeling kinda bored. i had so badly wanted to go somewhere or anywhere with mummy in the afternoon. but, she wasn't feeling well. uhh. it's not the first time, i sometimes suspect that it isn't really her not feeling well, it could be some psychological blockage, since she always reject to going out on weekends. the excuses were almost identical each week, it's either she has lots of household chores that she very very badly want to complete, or she wants to mark yy's assesments or she just don't want to go out. it's kinda mentally implanted that she should stay at home. i guess its bad for her, really.

so i've been home the whole day today. really really bored. couldn't decide what to have for dinner, cos it's either pizza or kfc. bored to the extend of deciding to cook porridge for dinner. god. mummy was complaining about 4d just now. hai. i can't understand what's the big deal about striking 4d. c'mon, it's like a one out of a hundred (or even more) chance to strike it. i seriously believe in working harder and earning the fruit of my labour, rather than depending on lady luck. i think i can't convince them about investing on 4d weekly, why throw ur hard earned money back to where it came from? (i've got nothing more to say.)

reformatted my laptop. this precious piece of rubbish crashed twice (in a row) on wed and it crashed again on the following day. i seriously wna sell this lappy away and buy a new one. after reformatting, i realised that i've lost a few of my programs, eww. crimson editor is gone. microsoft office is gone. msn is gone. avg is gone. and the best bit is that the wireless ain't looking good. i can't access to quite a few websites (for dno what reason) and the msn that i downloaded can't work! dart blast.

everything seems wrong today. i wonder what else i can do to make it right again.
yuck yuck yuck.
i'm complaining here because i don't have my youth day. it's not fair.
someone tell me the age range for youths!
i'm only 17 ok?
grrr..

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Tuesday, 1 July 2008

daddy's first day of work as 1WO. ((:

i'm so happy for him. ((:

oh, anw. i think i ate some wooden shaving, that was found together with my ice-cream stick, in my ice-cream. goodness!

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stayed up till 3a.m. to "study" itl last night. hai. staying up the whole night was totally crap. it's as good as being useless. slept on the sofa last night, for i was so afraid of being unable to get up and be given a "L" for being late for class. i felt like a zombie after i got up. i nearly vomited and felt like fainting while i was washing up. goodness. imagine if i were to just faint and suffocate in the bathroom. i might just die (and skip itl test!).

anw, itl test is finally over. i'm (almost) sure i'll fail the test. totally crap. i left a 10m question totally blank. the question was unexpected, very unexpected. :x for the mrp thing, i only filled in like around 10 "cells" out of the entire page of cells. so, yea, 25m fly away too. the only thing i remembered doing correctly was the 7R's. period. yes, itl sucks. i'd rather do a social studies test. :x

went to the library after the brain-bursting test. my brain felt so much better after the test, so much more un-clogged and much fresher than ever. the 6 of us (me, lingli, huiling, jean, chiahwa, meixiu) were happily trying to rush to finish wp when huiling's phone rang. guess what. mengting called to say that there was itl prac lesson. freak. there went our hopes of completing wp project. taa-dah. walked back (again) to blk 46, from the library. sian.
tried a new program during prac. it's some logistics simulation thing. really cool stuff. facts and figures were generated with a click of a button. it was like a make-believe thing about moving goods with constrains of the weather, transportation and stuff. nice stuff really, might consider looking for this software.

wp lesson was ok. i'm lucky because my index number was not picked at random. (i think i'm no. 9, i can't remember.) realised that i did my wp wrongly. god. i'm a lazy pig who intelligently decided to combine units d, e and f together. this definitely saved alot of time and effort. but, lecturer wanted us to do it unit by unit. so, redo everything. i'm super not willing and the deadline is on this friday.

there is still econs quiz 2 and econs tutorial 3 question 5 and 6 to be done. plus bizca unit i, j and k. plus math project final presentation due on the week after next. plus itl project powerpoint presentation also due on the week after next. plus on-going cats project. plus a econs project. plus a bizca project.
so i'm hoping to do as much wp as possible. so that i won't have to rush or die in the process of rushing. i don't wna vomit or feel faint again. eww.

every single piece of work is waiting for its turn to be handed in.
and they are all queuing up behind me.
all i can see is that:
the queue is getting longer and longer..

i'm really very very tired.
i dno what i'm blogging anymore.

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