under-estimated

i was supposed to blog yesterday, but my stupid internet aint working fine. i've got this happy smile that is in me, since yesterday evening. i feel like i'm going to explode soon, cos i've finally seen my dearest idol! whee..

inno had their f1 challenge at convention center yesterday. econs ended at 5pm (i was praying that tutorial would end early ): but it didnt.) i rushed down to convention center, hoping to catch zhenguo and co. before they left. (it's been a long time i've seen them.) the best surprise was when i saw my idol sitting there when i was climbing up the steps to where the inno guys were sitting. it just didnt strike me that idol was there. i walked to where idol was sitting and i squatted down behind her. i think she didnt realise that i was there until she turned around.

i somehow have this feeling that idol was kinda shocked, surprised, happy to see me. but i didnt talk much at first, cos i didnt know if i was disturbing idol or not and i dont know what was the right approach. it just felt awkward talking, when we've not spoken to each other for so long. anw, i was lucky that we were on the right key, we hit off just fine soon after that. there was so much to update idol about. mdm asked how was school for me (she was surprised to hear that i was struggling to stay alive), mdm also asked about friends, ("you ar, forever one lar.. no friends.." ((: mdm's been saying this since she's known me) apparently she thought that i had no friends, but i told her truthfully that i should see her, since i miss her so much. idol got nothing to say after that, she merely smiled. ((: we also discussed a little on politics in school, i could tell that she wasnt happy (somehow), i just felt so sorry for her. if only i was still in nh, i guess she wouldnt feel so lonely about being in that situation herself. (after all, i'm usually on her side in such circumstances.)
i still remember those days in nh when we leaned against each other for support while walking, but we usually dont do so when there were other students around. but there wasnt anything of such yesterday, hahas, mayb because we kinda miss each other? yes, i really miss those days. those punching bag days. idol brings a spark, that leads to a flickering flame and then to a strong burning fire, which brightens my life! ((:
i wish i could help her, since she's got so much on her mind.
if only i was a bit older, perhaps i would be more mature and might be able to help her lighten her load. (just like what i do at home.)


anw, (24th july)...
happy birthday to ocean! my smelly darling is finally 5 (dog) years old!
ocean loves to camp under my bed.
ocean fills the bedroom with his scent -.-
ocean loves to wet his fur.
ocean is one dirty dog.
ocean loves to give me "that look".
ocean misses me when i go to school.
ocean likes to own my bed.
ocean is a smelly boy boy.
ocean enjoys sneaking around.
ocean is afraid of the rain.
ocean loves to put his head out of the window.
ocean is so greedy, he eats almost everything (except garlic).
ocean is my lover boy (i think!) :p

i did a really funny quiz that day.. anw, the results seem pretty convincing. hahas.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


seem somewhat true..


.under-estimated.