under-estimated

Saturday, 22 November 2008

grandma's 3rd seven.

我们过了三个没有嫲嫲的星期。
我应该是习惯了这样的日子，但我发现自己还是很怀念、想念有嫲嫲的日子。

我觉得少了一个嫲嫲，就好像少了一份关怀、一份爱。

回想起最后一次和嫲嫲通电话，（17 oct）嫲嫲说：“有啊！有挂住你。。。要用功读书、听阿爸阿妈的话、不要给阿爸阿妈操心，知道吗？不要担心我。嫲嫲好好，有阿爸他们陪我。你回家休息啦，改天才来看嫲嫲啦hor? 好啦，好啦，hor？mm.. 拜拜, ah 拜拜。。。”

我真的很想再次听到嫲嫲的声音、很想再次听到嫲嫲叫我：

- “要用功、用心读书，要好好孝顺阿爸阿妈，要乖乖听话，不要辜负阿爸阿妈对我的期望。”
- “你很乖的，你很有嫲嫲的心，嫲嫲很开心有个这样乖的孙。”
- “ 你生日，所以嫲嫲要给个红包给你，你收好来。”
- “好lor, 嫲嫲听到你考到好成绩，嫲嫲好开心。哈哈哈，很好很好。”
- “这些钱是嫲嫲给你的，你收好，拿去买东西吃、搭taxi回家也好，你不拿，嫲嫲会生气的。”

When death occurs, nothing can change it nor can anything turn it around. It’s only when you lose someone, then you’ll start to realize the importance of having him around.

Since 嫲嫲’s passing, I’ve realized that my entire daily routine has been turned upside down. I don’t have enough time to complete my work. To top it all, I’m energy-drained by the time I reach home after school.

Test is on Monday. I didn’t mention anything about this test to mummy or daddy, cos I don’t wish to let them worry about me and my test (and I already feel damn stressed without their constant reminders). Since I didn’t mention anything about tests or work, mummy and daddy would obviously think that school’s slack enough for me, and they would start to complain when I don’t help with any housework. Who else, other than myself can I blame?

Freak people, teach me how to multi task!
Who would actually understand this mental torture?

嫲嫲, when will you give us a clue that you're happy out there?
嫲嫲, why don't you come back instead? It's so weird without having you around.

by makk at 6:44 pm |